Take me to the King

Yesterday a group of college singers came to our church and sang a song entitled "Take Me to the King".  Below are the lyrics:

"Take Me To The King"

[Chorus:]
Take me to the King
I don't have much to bring
My heart is torn in pieces
It's my offering
Take me to the King

[Verse 1:]
Truth is I'm tired
Options are few
I'm trying to pray
But where are you?
I'm all churched out
Hurt and abused
I can't fake
What's left to do?

Truth is I'm weak
No strength to fly
No tears to cry
Even if I tried
But still my soul
Refuses to die
One touch will change my life

[Chorus:]
Take me to the King
I don't have much to bring
My heart's torn in pieces
It's my offering

Lay me at the throne
Leave me there alone
To gaze upon Your glory
And sing to You this song
Please take me to the King

[Verse 2:]
Truth is it's time
To stop playing these games
We need a word
For the people's pain

So Lord speak right now
Let it fall like rain
Oh, yeah, we're desperate
We're chasing after you

[Bridge:]
No rules, no religion
I've made my decision
To run to You –
The healer that I need

[Chorus:]
Take me to the King
I don't have much to bring
My heart's torn to pieces
It's my offering

Lay me at the throne
Leave me there alone
To gaze upon Your glory
And to sing to You this song

Take me to the...

Lord we're in the way
We keep making mistakes
Glory is not for us
It's all for You

[Chorus:]
Take me to the King
I don't have much to bring
My heart's torn to pieces
It's my offering

Lay me at the throne
Leave me there alone
To gaze upon Your glory
And sing to You this song

Take me to the King [3x]

I LOVE this song.  It speaks so much of what I feel at times.   Sometimes in my life, it seems my prayer time becomes routine.  I feel I have nothing to bring to Jesus and don't even know what to say.  But I know He is always there.  Why do I  make it so difficult sometimes?  He wants all of me, nothing less.  But, I hold back.  Unknowingly at times, but nonetheless I hold back.  I start to believe those lies from the enemy.  You know the ones, "You will never be good enough."  "God can't use you.  You have done to many bad things."  "Why do you think you can disciple anyone else? You're life is a mess."  "You're just faking it."  And so on and so on.  The Bible says the devil comes to steal, kill and destroy.  He knows where we are weak and that is where he attacks.  And we start believing those lies, aka "fiery darts" he throws at us.  I have learned that sometimes I have to say out loud, "Satan!  Get away!"  Then I start throwing the Scripture at him.  He does not like Scripture.  And that is our best defense.  And to go to the King.  Lay down at His throne and give Him everything.  Our joy, our pain, everything.  He wants to take the burden from us.  But we have to give it to Him.

The other night I was laying in bed and couldn't sleep. I started thinking about my journey over the last several years and how I finally let God start doing the work He wanted to do in my life (another post, coming soon). How He started chiseling away the very thick walls of my people pleasing, approval seeking good works. Walls I had built out of fear. Fear of people knowing the real me, someone I didn't even know, but was sure others would not like. I had masked for so long I didn't even know who was under the mask and behind the walls. But it was the only life I knew. I only knew how to pretend to be someone who was spiritual and a "good Christian". When the walls started breaking down and the mask coming off, it was scary. I realized this would not be easy. I would have to trust God, something I thought I was doing but really had no idea how to do. At first I was kind of numb, just trying to not "lose it" in front of anybody. But finally, when He got through all the junk, there I was. A heart that truly wanted to know Him. Not about Him or about His Word, but HIM. And when He found me, I found Him. And oh the freedom!!! Now I don't have to pretend to be somebody. I can be me!! Sure, there are still battles but I go to Him instead of trying to cover it up and be someone I am not. It's not always easy, as you know, but oh so worth it!!  My life of living behind a wall is over.  It can be painful though, because I actually experience things instead of running from them.  And sometimes it's not fun (I prefer fun).  Sometimes I go back to faking it because I don't want anyone to know I'm hurting or struggling with something.  But when I get my eyes off me and on Him and others, I start to see His plan and trust Him more.  The enemy wants more than anything for us to be self-absorbed and stay in a pity party (yet another post for another day).  But, if we are believers, we have the victory in Christ already!!  And he wants us to stand in that victory.  So let's do that.  Take our eyes off of ourselves and look to Him.  Take me to the King!